[Phil is silent for a good minute. He's more or less used to hearing about the horrifying things that Medic has done in his own world. And at first? He has no real argument against this.]
You really know how to turn a guy on, don't you?
[Judging by the small kisses he places on Medic's neck, however, he doesn't seem very upset by this.
... However, something soon hits him.]
Remember that first kiss we had? The one where I saw my entire time loop?
I think... it wasn't supposed to be a punishment.
It was supposed to be my opportunity to become the best person I could have become.
[Look, Phil is just numb to the fact that his boyfriends are known murderers. It's fine.
Phil does smirk at that one comment, however]
I didn't know you could tell jokes!
[He playfully pushes Medic's shoulder lightly. His smirk soon falters, however, as he thinks back on the loop.]
I at least wished someone told me about it upfront what I was supposed to do. I really feel like I squandered the past decade of my life now, looking back.
... And I'm not sure. I hope whoever or whatever was keeping me in the time loop decided to stop it once I got out. The idea of my entire world locked into one day for the rest of eternity thanks to me sounds terrifying just to think about.
Hey! I can tell jokes just fine, thank you. It's just hard to get them across properly over sticky notes.
[That does get him to giggle a little, at least.]
A little direction would be nice, yes. Instead of just hoping you figure it out at some point while you drive yourself mad from the monotony.
Yes, I hope that, too, but I more meant... Do you think you're still able to become "the best" version of yourself, even without a time loop forcing you to?
I don't know. I doubt it, if I'm being honest with myself. I don't know how long I ended up saying in that timeloop, but it's way more time than I have to just improve myself the same way here.
Hmmm. Still. You know now that you can improve as a person. That you have less time is surely a fair trade-off for being able to experience new things, again- that alone should be more than enough help. You don't need decades to become kinder. Just the resolve to do so.
... That said, I like you just fine as you are.
[I mean some improvement wouldnt HURT but its fine he's gay anyway]
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You really know how to turn a guy on, don't you?
[Judging by the small kisses he places on Medic's neck, however, he doesn't seem very upset by this.
... However, something soon hits him.]
Remember that first kiss we had? The one where I saw my entire time loop?
I think... it wasn't supposed to be a punishment.
It was supposed to be my opportunity to become the best person I could have become.
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If you're turned on by hearing about murder and death, then you must be very happy with me.
[That's a joke.
He makes a soft noise at the kisses- Medic wasn't really expecting them, after all. He did kind of just talk about him killing a bunch of people.]
I... I like that much more. Though whoever chose to put you through it has a shitty idea of what's an opportunity and what's a punishment, ja?
What about now, then? Now that you're no longer in that loop- basically defying whatever god or gods put you through it?
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Phil does smirk at that one comment, however]
I didn't know you could tell jokes!
[He playfully pushes Medic's shoulder lightly. His smirk soon falters, however, as he thinks back on the loop.]
I at least wished someone told me about it upfront what I was supposed to do. I really feel like I squandered the past decade of my life now, looking back.
... And I'm not sure. I hope whoever or whatever was keeping me in the time loop decided to stop it once I got out. The idea of my entire world locked into one day for the rest of eternity thanks to me sounds terrifying just to think about.
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[That does get him to giggle a little, at least.]
A little direction would be nice, yes. Instead of just hoping you figure it out at some point while you drive yourself mad from the monotony.
Yes, I hope that, too, but I more meant... Do you think you're still able to become "the best" version of yourself, even without a time loop forcing you to?
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I don't know. I doubt it, if I'm being honest with myself. I don't know how long I ended up saying in that timeloop, but it's way more time than I have to just improve myself the same way here.
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... That said, I like you just fine as you are.
[I mean some improvement wouldnt HURT but its fine he's gay anyway]